After coming home for a while, cousins and aunties have been bombarding me with the million dollar question, bila nak kawin? More concern voices convey their interest in knowing whether or not I will buy a car overseas. Others ask me when I will start working.

I have not even finish my first degree and yet my plans for the future are heavily being watched out for. Ironically, my actual plans have not yet included any of their concerns. Well, not yet.

It comes as a realization to me almost instantaneously. Life is a cycle. There is the studying cycle, which stretches out from kindergarten to university, depending on what is expected of you, from your background. Then there will come adulthood, which includes having a job (a well meaning job with a good pay if situation permits), having a spouse and finally building a family.

This is the Malaysian dream.

The problem is I hate having people telling me how to achieve my dreams. I'm rebellious like that. Yes, some of the dreams do seem intriguing to me. Money, success and a perfect family. Who would resist that?

However, lately, aside from being rebellious, an unknown force of higher level thinking forces me into thinking that this cannot be just it. Life should be larger than this, larger than money, larger than ranks, larger than a perfect spouse.

Larger than life itself.

I just need to find the it that is larger than life. That is my dream.

Labels: everyday, people

Tajam pisau kerana diasah 9:26 PM   0 orang cakap-cakap

Absolution is my favorite Muse album of all. It reminds me of good times and growing up, and gives me the courage to face rainy days. Yes, Muse is my umbrella and I will stand under my umbrella. :)

Now reading the second volume of the Essez County Trilogy and Tariq Ramadhan's The Messenger in between.